Too Hard To Understand - I don't know  

Posted by: Second Child

Well, I don't know how long I have been disappear from this blog..
And now I just want to share about my complicated problem. Ups, problem? No, it's just a usual thing. Yes.
It began since I got my mid test report. And the atmosphere around me has totally changed. From the sweetest become the saddest. Actually, I don't know whether it is right or not, but my feeling says it..

Some people around me become more 'unkind' and.. Yaps, you know what I'll say.
They leave me and go away slowly, without a reason.
And again, I don't know why should they act like that. I feel like I am the strangest, the most stupid, the craziest, the ugliest, and the most disgusting person ever. Oh Jesus, how pity I am.

The time has gone then the new day comes. Until now, they act the same. I don't want to think about the negative things. But the condition forces me to do it.
I got the best 'emotion defense' from God, and I try to think positively.
Maybe they just want to tear me down.
Maybe they are jealous with my life.
Maybe they want to test my emotion.
Maybe this is their real way to treat me.
Maybe this is their real character.
There're many others probability...

But the point is, I thank God for giving me the people like them. They has been helping me to be more mature :)
And I know that Jesus has planned the best thing for me.

Well, I just want to share. On the last 11th and 22nd of Nov, I joined the opening and closing ceremony of SEA Games. Thank God, the event was going very well..
And this morning, I got the gold medal from MEDICA. Because on the first simulation/test, I reached the 1st rank of the favorite major. Thank God, thank God!
I could make my parents proud of me..

On this coming Dec, 5th-10th, I'll face the examination. My brother too. I really hope that we can pass it well, through the best way, so that we can reach be the best too :) Wish us luck!!

That's all, God Bless You all! :)